tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-56230547833252849102011-04-21T15:52:32.516-07:00My take on reality. Maybe I'm way off...maybe I'm notsanityVSrealityhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10897555454618163795noreply@blogger.comBlogger11100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5623054783325284910.post-26140607187761962472011-04-21T03:52:00.000-07:002011-04-21T03:52:17.841-07:00Why do I always assume that love from the past remains? And that people are genuinely good, although I know that isn't true...why? It's killing me. At my age, with my experience, I should know better by now. I married the first big crush I ever had and by conquering some old idea, I ended up divorced. <br /><br />I guess the point of this random jumble is...um...don't feel emotionally responsible for the meaningful relationships because there was a reason they didn't work out. There are two guys from my past that, admittedly, I have dropped everything for to get attention from...I'm glad I've finally come to my senses because living in a constant state of pretend is so unhealthy. <br /><br />I married Mr. A (name has been changed to Mr. A or Mr. Awesome) and we have been together 6 years now...I couldn't even allow myself to be happy and that's not fair to either of us. Our long road of struggle is finally coming to a close. There will always be hardship, but I don't need to add to it by pretending the grass is greener somewhere else. <br /><br />My random thoughts for the morning.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5623054783325284910-2614060718776196247?l=sanityvsreality.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>sanityVSrealityhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10897555454618163795noreply@blogger.com0